Friday, 26 April 2013

So Difficult To Play

     At last. I'm going to calm down and get some sleep. It's been a while since I wasn't bored. Now I'm just sitting there. I was checking some uses of the verb play. I particularly liked the ''play gooseberry'' one.
     Surprisingly, I'm a lot better than a few days ago. I've even went to the gym two times in a week! But, the hell. I'm very moody. There are many times when I can't stand anything and anyone (with brief exceptions) and the next minute I'm almost fine again.
     Whatever works. I guess I'll be fine. What we need is some time to think carefully. And it really, really, really could happen. The days they seem to fall from me.
     And I let them go.

Monday, 22 April 2013

More Nervous

     It's not so bad. Being nervous gives you some energy. You can answer questions easily. Even personal questions. Especially personal questions. But what if you answer correctly with implication... and no one gets your point.
     We people many times want to stop thinking. But do we need all these? We just let our problems slip away. Come on people! Let your mind drift away!

     Like me, right? (Sigh)

Wednesday, 17 April 2013

Nothing To Fear, Nothing At All

     Yesterday, I bought a cap. A really nice one. Beige with some really unimportant words and numbers on it. I wore it all morning and my head was warm and stuff. Nice cap.
     It reminded me that the summer is near. Don't know what to think. That I want it to come and let my thoughts slip away or that I don't want to stay alone in my room, enjoying long, romantic walks to the fridge? Anyway, summer is a strange era of my years. Of course it's many days off. And sometimes I have the opportunity to play live, which I particularly enjoy (the best way to express myself is singing). In the end I think I like summer a lot. And it's time for ice-cream. And the long walks thing. Nice.

     My computer is on the verge of suicide. The screen is blurry with a pink and green fog. I like it. It's surreal. It matches with my room walls. The weather is sunny (hits me in the head and I don't like it). I really need a vacation, anyone can tell... I talked about the weather.

Monday, 15 April 2013

I've Lost Control

     Ian Curtis really lost control. The thing is that I don't want to lose control. Over anything. The idea doesn't sound so simple, but it can be done. So, what about this crazy weather? Monday the sun shines, Tuesday it rains, Wednesday the sun is burning the ground again. I still need some sleep and my head it spins. Don't lose control...
     Today, I woke up early in the morning and just sat there in my bed, listening to some music. This is probably one of my favorite hobbies the last few days, because, every morning I wake up early and lie in my bed. It's a pretty fun thing to do really. You can hear the others snoring or talking in their sleep. And the shadows on my wall always create very strange shapes and creatures and I sit there and watch them move like a movie.
     When the sun rises the shadows go away. Time for breakfast.

Wednesday, 10 April 2013

Live It Up

     People, obviously, never let the other people know what they think. So, what do you do when everything is in a mess? I'm sure I found the answer. With a little bit of charisma and with a lot of luck, you just try to make the situation worse! Or it just happens, sometimes. Seriously I found an answer to many problems. You just have to wait. Anything can happen. And it's good that when you haven't got any expectations, whatever happens will be greater than what you had thought in the first place.
     Many times I've tried many things to find a solution to my problems. And now that I did, I don't use it...

     Just like Thom Yorke said ''This is the place. It won't hurt, it will not hurt''. Really ironic.

Sunday, 7 April 2013

In Silence

     I just understood the real value of silence. Yesterday, I was out with some friends and I couldn't speak, because I was sick. I had to make them understand what I was thinking only with signs. So, I started experimenting with my face expressions. It's a wonderful thing trying to look totally sad or happy or just bored. When you start messing around with emotions you never get bored. It's not a special day.
     I'm still confused and I don't know what to do. Maybe I'll go for a walk round the corner. To get some fresh air. And think. That will do just fine...

Saturday, 6 April 2013

Am I Still Ill?

     My throat is in terrible pain. I'm officially still ill. Last night we were singing. Loudly. So today I can't even speak. Only a whisper here and there, because it's fun to be in the Whi.Co. However things seem to get better for me. At last a weekend. I need to calm down.
     I want to decorate my room. I'll get a new poster or something. It has started getting kinda dull. Glad that I got a CD-Player, because if I didn't there would be no music in my room (except of course my music).
     Yesterday I could stay up all night. But noone asked me too, so... I just listened to some songs and slept. We played from 21:30 to 1:30 and I had already been sick so it wasn't the best thing for my health. We played 29 songs. It was exhausting, but I was extremely happy, because I wanted some special people to show up and they did. That's life. Sometimes it's very good. For a few minutes.

Tuesday, 2 April 2013

Perfect Situation

     I am so confused. Had a really great time this weekend. Filled with tripping nights and music. I only slept two hours in three days. A very strange way of living. Many things happened. Deep inside it surprised me a lot, but I knew that, someday, I would have an extremely weird weekend.
     It's good that I found something to do. Now singing and writing. I always wanted to know what Brandon Flowers would never do. Just 'I never'. What? Going to sleep. I need it.